I rly dnt knw what i do . Everyone think i throw temper bcos of my make up or what . I dnt knw why i'll go crazy to bang my head . The person dnt knw .Dnt understand me dnt fxcking understand ! why ? what i do again ? i'v nt been telling the person what happen . he dnt knw . he rly dnt knw whats happening , i feel like letting go . but i dnt bear . its so torturing to go on . he dnt understand! if i knw im heading to a wrong direction why shld i still continue walking? i just hope he can change / he changed before . but its just a matter of time . hes back to normal . why me ? why must happen on me ? whow can i tell peepo about my problems ? i feel so frustratd and irritated to repeat myself to em . but i just cant tell him about my problems . he jst keep quiet say idk or what . how ? rnning away cant solve it . should i let go ? but i knw when i let go i dsnt makes me feel any better . how ? why must happen on me ? everything i'm all alone . no one theres ? i cry nobody cares . what if i die ? whould anyone care ? dying is so silly . but i cant any other ways to make it thru . neglecting all my things ard me bcos of him . is it worth ? iv been asking myself . i just cant find e' ans . can anyone help ? i ask peepo ey'll jus reply idk . is it worth bcos of him ? to giveup all my things ard me ? what if one day he leaves me ? will i get back those things i'v given up ? but he has everything . i knw i'm nth to him . why must we be tgt in e' 1st place? i'v been thinkng alone too much things . i cry everyday .who knws ? does he knw? he is happily laughing away for his own probs . my mum even mistaken me . doom . what to doooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo . i rly dnt knw . some words are better to be left unsaid so what ? i'v burst out like what happen just now . i cant handle my own emotions . i wish i'm stronger . i wish i can face e' reality . i wish i dnt breakdwn easily . i wish & i wish . but nth its gonna come true . why can he act likes nth happen ? so diff to fetch me from sch ? so diff to go out w me ? so diff to wake me up ? so diff to keep his promises to me ? why shld my eyes be swollen bcos of him ? why isit always r/s that bring me dwn ? i dnt want this way eiether . no one can help perhaps . only myself . but how ? ); ...