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I rly dnt knw what i do . Everyone think i throw temper bcos of my make up or what . I dnt knw why i'll go crazy to bang my head . The person dnt knw .Dnt understand me dnt fxcking understand ! why ? what i do again ? i'v nt been telling the person what happen . he dnt knw . he rly dnt knw whats happening , i feel like letting go . but i dnt bear . its so torturing to go on . he dnt understand! if i knw im heading to a wrong direction why shld i still continue walking? i just hope he can change / he changed before . but its just a matter of time . hes back to normal . why me ? why must happen on me ? whow can i tell peepo about my problems ? i feel so frustratd and irritated to repeat myself to em . but i just cant tell him about my problems . he jst keep quiet say idk or what . how ? rnning away cant solve it . should i let go ? but i knw when i let go i dsnt makes me feel any better . how ? why must happen on me ? everything i'm all alone . no one theres ? i cry nobody cares . what if i die ? whould anyone care ? dying is so silly . but i cant any other ways to make it thru . neglecting all my things ard me bcos of him . is it worth ? iv been asking myself . i just cant find e' ans . can anyone help ? i ask peepo ey'll jus reply idk . is it worth bcos of him ? to giveup all my things ard me ? what if one day he leaves me ? will i get back those things i'v given up ? but he has everything . i knw i'm nth to him . why must we be tgt in e' 1st place? i'v been thinkng alone too much things . i cry everyday .who knws ? does he knw? he is happily laughing away for his own probs . my mum even mistaken me . doom . what to doooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo . i rly dnt knw . some words are better to be left unsaid so what ? i'v burst out like what happen just now . i cant handle my own emotions . i wish i'm stronger . i wish i can face e' reality . i wish i dnt breakdwn easily . i wish & i wish . but nth its gonna come true . why can he act likes nth happen ? so diff to fetch me from sch ? so diff to go out w me ? so diff to wake me up ? so diff to keep his promises to me ? why shld my eyes be swollen bcos of him ? why isit always r/s that bring me dwn ? i dnt want this way eiether . no one can help perhaps . only myself . but how ? );

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2008年9月26日星期五
14:44

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2007年7月4日星期三
10:23

ROARS ! Regret siols , really regret siols !
I'm so sad -.- i dunt care lahs , sat gg touch-up liaos lahs ~
Hais , nb . E' person draw crooked lohs ! Tribal nt like tribal
wants . THIRTY DOLLARS LEHS ! All e' fishmonger fault lohhs .
Hurhurs , want cry le ! .. ccb , i scared touch-up till v ugly !
en' how siols ?! fucking ugly nahs ccb !
This mr . fishmonger bring me to this achibaliang sh0p lohs !
Swo gek xiim ahs !
Led em shw eu ;

ugly rytes ?! WTF mans ?! _|_
Hmms , hais !

These pic took quite long ago alr .
Misses my old hair lohs ! ROLFs ~ !

This was recently lahs ! At TPY hub . see i kiss e' fish ..
{ mr . fishmonger dunt jealous ahs * }

rahhs , i'm nt gg sku sku sku !
i hate sku lahs ; muahahas . So ' song ' lahs ...
dunt need go sku xDDD cos' i dunt feel lyk gg ehs .
Hmms , fri gg watched ' surf up ' ! Heehs ;DD

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2007年6月26日星期二
19:20

WTH WTF IS EVERYTHING ARD ME GG ON ?! CAN SOMEONE TELL ME ?!
THINGS ARE ALWAYS NT RIGHT FERH ME !
NOBODY CANS UNDERSTAND HOW'S I FEEL && FUCKING SHED HW MANY TEARS !
WHAD IS THESE ?! IS THESE WHAD ALL I WANT ?! NO !
I'VE ALR WOKEN UP ! NO , I WAN TUH BE AWAKEN !
BUT ?! HOW COME I DUNT ?! EVERYONE IS LYKDAT !
MY MUM , THE NORTHVIEW , MY FWENS , PONGKIA && JOVINT ?!
WTH MANS ?! I DO TOK TUH MY FWENS ABT MY XINSHI DE LOHS !
BUT , WAD DID I REALY DO TUH DESERVE ALL THESE ?!
I SAID I WAN TUH WAKEUP ! BHUD WAD DID THAT PK DO ?
I ASK HIM UPTEEMS TIMES ! ND I OSO FIND MYSELF IRRITATING !
DOES HE STIU LOVES ME ?! , IZZIT REALI E' END OF US ?!
WAD DID HE DO , HE'S ALWAES RUNNING AWAY !
WHYE CARNT EU JUS TELL ME E' TRUTH . THIS IS NT THE WAY LUHS ,
I CARNT BE POSSIBLY EVERYNIGHT CRYING FERH EU RYTES ?
I'LL GO CRAZY ONE DAY BCOS OF EU ?! WHYE WHEN WE'RE TUHGETHER ,
EVERYTIME E' TIME THAT I NEED EU E' MOST , EU WAS ALWAES NVR THER FERH ME!
EVERYWHER I GO , EVERYTHING I SEE IS ALL QNS QNS QNS !!!
CAN EU ALL STOP IT ANORTS ?!!!!!!!!!
I HAD ENUFF ALRYTES ?! I GO SKU , E' SKU SAID THOSE THINGS I DIDNT HAF EVEN DONE ! ND' KEPT SAYING BOUT ME . PREJUDICE AGAINST ME !
WTH ?! MY MUM ? YES I LOVE HER ALOT I KNW I DO DISAPPOINTS HER AT TYMES .
BUT TUDDAE ! NOW ?! I'M RLY UPSET ND DISPPOINTED IN HER !
SHE'S ALWAYS THE ONE THER FOR ME ! BUT NOW ?! IT JUS SEEMS LIK EVERYTHING IS CHANGING !! WHY IZZIT IM THINKING SO MUCH ?
ND WAD THE FUCK FOR IM PUTTING UP A FAKE SMILE WHEN I OUT OF THE STREETS ND TOWARDS EVERYONE ?! I HATE PPL TUH SYMPHATISE ME !
IM NT LIK OTHER GERL !!! WAD FOR I TELL EVERYONE MY XIN SHI ?!
WAD CAN DEY DO ? CHANGED MY LIFE ?BRING PONGKIA BAC TUH MY SIDE ?!
NO RIGHTS ?! ALL NONSENSE !!!!!
THER'RE JUS LENDING ME THEIR EARS ! WHAD ELSE ?!
NO MORE , THATS WHY I CHOOSE NT TUH SAY ?
IT'S POINTLESS YEA ?
ND THAT PK , WAD FOR I'VE SLEEPNESS NIGHTS ND' CRYING TILL MY EYES ARE REALY SWOLLON FERH EU EVERY NIGHT ?! ITS JUS LIK E' SAME ROUTINE ?!!!
WHILE , EUR OUTSIDE HAFING FUN ?! WTH ~
WHY ?! A 5MTHS R/S .... IZZIT REALY SO WEAK ?
THAT SUCH A TINY THINGY COULD BRING OUR R/S DWN ?!!
I LOVE EU , BUT EU ?! IF EU RLY LOVED ME EU WOULDNT MIND !
THIS IS NT THE REAL REASON RYTES ?
WELL , ACTUALY I DO KNW ! EVERYONES KNW ! I KNW ! EVEN YOU URSELF !
I KNW EU'VE 4GOTTEN ME , EU DUNT LOVE ME ANYMORE , EU DUNT MISSME ANYMORE , I MEAN NTH TUH EU ANYMORE !
I KNW THESE ARE ALL FACTS !
BUT I JUS DUNT WANNA FACE THE REALITY .
I'M NAIVELY THINKING DAT EU STILL FUCKING LOVE ME ND' MISS ME !
ND EU ARE YEARNING FOR PATCH W ME ND' EU STIU WAN CONTINUE THIS R/S !
ALL BULLSHIT LAHS ! WHY IZZIT SO ? COS' I STIU WAN TUH BE BACK WITH EU !
COS ' WE'VE NT HAF A COMPLETE STORY ! I TREAT EU LIK SHIT LAST TYME ...
BUT EU TREAT ME AS IF I WAS E' PRINCESS ... EU GAF ME ALL UR HEART .
BUT I JUS TURN AWAY ND HECKCARE EU ALWAYS SCOLD N SHOUTS AT EU FOR NO REASON ?! BUT WHEN E' DAYS COME , I KNW HW TUH THINK ALR ND' WANTS TUH GIF EU MY VERY BEST LERHS , WAD DID EU DO ? EU TURN AWAY LIK FUCK !
SEE ME IN SKU MACHIAM IM INVISIBLE ?!
PLS LUHS . EVERWHER I GO , I JUS DUNT KNW WHYE I'LL TINK OF EU ?!
CRUMPLER BAG ( EVERYONE IN E' MRT && STREETS IS CARRYING THIS FUCKING BRAND ) , FLESHIMP (THE JACKET WE BROUGHT TUHGETHER ) , NEWBIE ( OUR COUPLE TEE ) , PESCADOS , E' HEEREN WANTON MEE , NEOPRINT SHOP , RIP CURL , 4HEAD , THE FAKE SHELTER EU SAID , SKU , UR CLASS , UR FWENS , THE INDIAN ROJAK , ME TO YOU , CHEH CHEH . CANDLES , 77TH STREET , OUR RING , E' FLOWER EU GAF ME , E' WATER BOTTLE I TAKE TUH SKU EVERYDAY , E' ADDIDAS WALLET EU GAF ME , SPONGEBOB , THE ORANGE JUICE EU ALWAYS BOUGHT AT MY HSE DWNSTAIRS DE VENDING MACHINE , DAFEI , XIAOFEI , MY HSE DWNSTAIRS , ESPLANADE , CITY HALL , SWISSHOTEL , THE CRACKER EU ALWAYS BOUGHT LASTYM OSO AT MY VENDING , MY ROOM EVERYTHING , EVERYWHER REMINDS ME OF EU !
SOMETYMES HOW MUCH I ENVY UR FWENS DO EU KNW ?
DEY CAN BE LASTING Y CARNT ME && EU ??! SO MANY TONS LOADS THOUSAND MILLION BILLIONS PPL ASK ME NT TUH WAIT FERH EU GIFUP , BUT I DID NOT !
ND EVERYONE IS GETTING MRE ND MORE FANGAN WHEN I SAID 'PONGKIA HERE ND THER NW ND DEN ' .... NVRM , I SHALLL NT CONT .
BYE

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